IAmBack!!!

I'm finally back! And I miss my bed!

Macau and Hong Kong were great but I miss Singapore! Lol..

Kinda ferverish now. Before I left for Macau, I already had a bad cough. Upon reaching there, P.H.Y.S.I.C.S and LaneigeQueen made me drink some cooling drink. It worked; my cough got better. But when Ireturned from Hong Kong to Macau, the wind was so strong and cold that my cough returned.

Going doctor tomorrow. Can't afford to be sick for the hols.

Will continue my adventure later. Gotta rest..

Annehigaseyyo!!

OneTwoThree

Feeling slightly emo now.

I've learnt over the years that there are three ways that I can get over my emo state temporarily. Only temporarily..

1. Sleep. When I'm depressed or in I-want-to-escape-from-reality mood, I can actually sleep the whole day. Sleep helps me not to think about my problem or shut whatever that is bothering me. And I'm doing it a lot these days.
2. Watch K-drama or J-drama. The plots usually let you engulfed in sympathising or rejoicing with the characters. That's when you forget your own miserable life. And realise that there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Only if you seek for it.
3. Cut off ties with whatever that is upsetting you. I've done it a few years ago. And it actually works. But now, I'm at peace with this 'whatever'. In fact, I'm on talking terms with 'whatever'. Amazing.

So far, I've been doing the first two for the past few weeks. I guess, if I'm still bothered, I have to resort to No.3. Maybe that's for the best.

TimeToPerkUp!

My past entries had been rather dreadry and pessimistic. Time to perk up the mood. Can't afford to be morose for the rest of 2007. Fighting!!!

Had lunch with Mr Tay yesterday. It's nice to see him again; haven't been shooting my arrows (suan-ing) at him for some time. Miss him! Lol.. Didn't think that I would say that. I miss the rest too. But the other three couldn't make it. One was meeting his girlfriend, one was working and the other was at home (his mother had bought loads of food for him). But I'm meeting Emo Guy this Friday for dinner before Metier and Mr Foo after I come back from my holidays. Looking forward to it! :)

Not feeling that well. My throat's slightly sore and I keep having running nose. And I'm flying off this Sunday. Haiz.. Mr Rene advised me to go to the doctor but I feel that it's a waste of money. Hmm.. I'll try to self-medicate first.

Had a farewell dinner yesterday. Too bad most of them couldn't make it. After that, we actually went to an arcade to be juveniles! Must thank Bridging Gap 2007. Had so much fun, especially watching GB#1 doing the Para Para Dance. Lol.. He sure was good. Climbed up all the levels and even had his name written in the machine! Me? I failed at stage 1. Super lame! Lol..

After that, we went to KBox. Got loads of Taki's HERO door hangers. And PinkMonkie got two free tickets to watch HERO! Waa.. Should have volunteered to pay. Then I would get the tickets. Lol.. Anyway, I've watched HERO. If you love Taki and Takako, you would love the movie. We sang until 1 plus? I was still wide awake but the rest of them were stoned. Sometimes I think there's something wrong with my body clock. Very bizarre. When others are tired, I'll be like an Energizer bunny. When I'm super shag, the others are so alert and awake. Strange.

I'm listening to Jay Chou's new album now. Compliments from Mr Rene.

Will be meeting PurringFeline later to make my car plates. My front car plate literally disappear from sight. My dad suspected foul play but I don't think that was the case. I mean, who would be so boh-liao to peel off my car plate? Heesh.. Anyway, I think it might have dropped off because there was heavy rain during the weekend. Luckily I wasn't the one who was using the car. Or else I can hear endless ranting from my dad.

Haiz.. my nose is doing its marathon now. Need to eat medicine. And rest.

*twenty28eight is going to watch more Japanese dramas*

You

Just stay away from me.

i'mlostagain

Silly me. Silly me. Silly me.

How can one be foolish zillions of times? How many times have I told myself that every forward step I take, I should not turn back and take a glance of the past?

I thought I was resolute about this but as usual, being curious and taking a chance, I turn back to look at the past and was soundly slapped across the face. With just two words. Two miserable words. And this is going to spoil my whole day. Correction. My whole week.

I'm lost again..

ClumsyGoKart

This is the result of being clumsy when playing go-kart. Doesn't look that bad in the picture but it looks damn purplish-blue and I only noticed it on Saturday. Lame..

Annehigaseyyo..

I just woke up and was feeling slightly dazed. The clock showed 0300 and my laptop was still switched on. Was about to switch it off when I saw something online that made me stop what I was doing. And reconsider an issue that has been bugging me for a couple of days.

From experience, what I should do is to dispose this issue immediately and stop burdening myself with it. And from experience, I know that I would have a hard time to let go. Because I have learnt to care for it.

Letting go is never easy for me.

I guess it's the best thing to do because I've done ways to ensure that it will always be in my life and yet, it's futile.

Annehigaseyyo, JC!

Bogo ship da.

Fighting, WT!

LessonLearnt..

Two Saturdays ago, I nearly got into an accident. Came home pretty late (or should I say, early?). Have been busy the day before; DeepaRaya celebration, open house for Hari Raya, watched 'Brotherhood' and hang out at the airport.

I was driving towards my carpark when I fell asleep. Maybe it was a second or two, but when I opened my eyes, I was steering towards my right on the opposite lane! If I hadn't woken up, I think I would hit or go over the curb! Luckily there was no oncoming car or I would crash into it. Shook me a little. This had never happened to me before! I would be very exhausted or very sleepy but never did I fall asleep while driving!

But you know what I learnt from this?

Some things do not last. Maybe it's a phase we go through but once we get over it, you just totally forgot how we cherish certain things.

Yes.. I'm talking in circles.

Just let it be a lesson to me then.

lifesucks..

My life's full of ups and downs nowadays. Well.. mostly downs. Been getting into squabbles with people who are close to me. On retrospect, I don't think I'm at fault. But then again, I may overlooked certain things and be insensitive. Pretty insensitive.

DownNo.1
I seriously don't understand why my close one claimed that I am a VIP. Add to the insult, she actually pointed out why I should be agitated. Shouldn't I enjoy being one? Everyone giving in to me.. And make decisions based on what I want.

Sometimes, we have to look at a bigger picture. I felt so unjustifed (and still is) for a close friend to think that way of me. I may not be perfect. But for her, I'm willing to compromise so that she can enjoy going out with us. With her family and curfews, all of us have to adapt so that she can still spend whatever time she has with us. But with last minute cancelling a three-week-beforehand outing (we plan ahead in case she has other commitments) and insisting of opting out a picnic (which I so look forward because of my hectic schedule) because of a beauty schedule, I just snapped. The latter was not in the list of our outings but why must we always accomodate? I mean.. if you can spend time with us (which you claim that is what we haven't been doing), why not? Beauty schedule is more important than friends?

I am just going to keep quiet about this. Because when I am angry, I become a nasty person. And it's ugly. Life sucks..

DownNo.2
Maybe.. there is something wrong with me. Within that week, I had another squabble with another friend. All because of a chalet. I know you will be reading this. So.. here goes. The three of us do want to spend time with you at your chalet. One of us ends work at 1800. So of course, she will come only after that. I and the other are going for the play. Which both of us had decided and bought the tickets way before you told us about your chalet. But you kept insisting that the chalet's a waste because everbody's coming in very late when you can check in as early as 1400.

I learn that as we grow older, certain things cannot be planned. And in this case, our schedules. To go to your chalet is something that we would like to do. But since there are certain factors make the whole thing imperfect, why don't we just make the best of the situation? Well.. at least you are still talking to me. That is the saving grace.

But lesson learnt? Life sucks..

DownNo.3
My blog has been a place where I wrote for the past two years. And it is comical that a close friend actually just started reading it last Saturday. And called me up and reprimand me about a certain entry that I wrote. And.. you know what is preposterous about the whole thing? The entry was last years!

Gosh.. I can literally pull my hair out! We are still talking but not after some acidic remarks to each other.

Haiz.. again.. life sucks.

DownNo.4
This is so far the worst. Because it is affecting my mood. But I guess, you don't understand. How can you if you have your own life to live?

Haiz..

I just need to reorganise my thoughts.

Life sucks.. Super sucks..

I miss everyone.. :(