I HATE...

1. LIARS
2. SYCHOPHANTS
3. GOSSIP-MONGERS
4. WARPED-UP FREAKS
5. EVERYBODY-ELSE-IS-WRONG-BUT-ME JERKS

Bloody idiots should be transposed to the lowest level of HELL.
@#%*!!!!!

Bom.. Bom.. Bom.. Bom.. Bom.. @PulauBelakang Mati

I had GREAT fun yesterday!!!

And the company's GREAT too!!!
Thanks Fah and Dah..
Managed to do this before I turn 30..
Heehee..

And Dah..
Have a GREAT BIRTHDAY!!!
May Allah bless you and your family always..

Memories..

I remember smells very well. And I always associate them with the place, time or person I smell the fragrance or odour from.

Do you know that you can wear the same perfume and yet it smells slightly different on different people?

I used to be interested in this person who used Farenheit as if the person actually bathed in it. My nose is pretty sensitive and everytime I went near this person, I actually kept sneezing non-stop. But of course, because of my interest, I bear the pain (of having to wipe my nose several times to a point it was so sore) to be near this person.

Then, when I started to be a Potter, one of the Heads used Farenheit too. I was amazed that I could identify the smell but it smelt different on him. The essence of the smell was still there, identifiable as Farenheit, but it was distinctively his smell. That was when I realized perfume can smell differently on different people.

I woke up this morning and looked out of the window. The air smelt slightly burnt and suddenly, the thought of my OBS adventure came to my mind. Haiz.. that was 14 years ago. You know, memories are very associative. And instantly, it reminded of my first love.

I had a five-day adventure at OBS and from there, I learnt that you just don't need physical strength to overcome obstacles. From OBS, I learn humility and teamwork. From OBS, I had a taste of my first love.

His name is Daniel Goh. He used to stay at Jalan Senyum (I don't know if he still stays there). I think he is one year older than me and was studying at St Hilda's Secondary School. I was quite a stalker huh? He wasn't good-looking but he was very charismatic and a born leader. He was humble and yet, commands the respect of the whole watch. I think I fell in love with him on the second day. I was very impressed with his abilities and character. Alas.. he never even gave me a second glance. He knew my existence but treated me just as how he treated the other girls.

Ironically, I was courted by another boy who was also in my watch. We called him Jetty. He was very handsome and actually had a very nice name but we couldn't stand his bragging. Now that I am a Potter, I realise that was all for attention. He came from one of the notorious schools in Singapore but that was besides the point. The point is.. he kept bragging (loudly) from Day One to Day Five. Not that we dislike him, but it got too much at times. He actually asked me to be his girlfriend on Day Four!!! Gosh.. imagine how shocked I was? I was interested in Daniel (who was actually on good terms with Jetty. Only Daniel could stand his braggings.) and yet, I was courted by another boy. So sad..

Of course I declined. I did not want my first boyfriend to be a braggart, right? And I regretted not approaching Daniel because that was the last time I saw him.

When I was in TJ, I had to take 152 to school. That was when I passed Jalan Senyum twice everyday. And everyday, I told myself to alight and walk through Jalan Senyum in case I might bump into Daniel. But I didn't. Stupid, right?

So what happened to Jetty? A few years ago, I read in the papers that he was stabbed by a secret society member. He actually managed to go to the police station but I think he died there. When he was courting me then, he actually asked a girl who was close to me in the watch for help. The girl asked me, "Do you mind being with a person so that he can better?" I told her that as long as I love the person, I don't mind. But if there is no feelings, why should I be with that person just to make sure he's going through the right path?

Once a while I will wonder, if I had said yes, would Jetty still be alive today. I'm not such an angel but if I could have played a part, maybe he won't turn so bad after all.

As for Daniel, wish you all the best in the world. You are one boy who made me cry for my unrequited love and it took me nearly three years to get over you (crazy right? I only knew him for FIVE DAYS)!!! That is when I realised, it doesn't matter how long you know the person; you can know a person for a lifetime and you won't even fall for that person. And Daniel, to my 15-year old self, you will always be SAT (sounds like MUD.. Chinese word, hor!) to me.

The Power of Three

Charmed, I must say...

What's Next?

I have reached a stage in my life where nothing seems to excite me any more. Stay out as late as 6am. Done that. Splurge on things I don't need. Done that. Have my own car. Done that. Have my own house. Done that. Walk around with no purpose. Done that. Never sleep at all for two days. Done that. Watch Korean drama, slept for two hours, then went to Bukit Timah for a hike, went home and continue watching, then went out again to watch midnight movie, and went home to continue watching the Korean drama. I have done that too. Basically, I find life's a bore now.

Zah told me that I need to travel. Well.. money is a factor. So is the company. I need people to travel. Wish I can travel alone; I actually need someone to accompany me to the toilet (not in the cubicle!). I attribute that kind of bizarre behaviour to girls' school.

Sometimes I like to go out alone. I don't have to talk to anyone. I can take my own time to look at things. But the problem is.. when I get hungry. It's weird to eat alone. But I kind of like it. Makes me feel independent. So I guess the next step is to go to the toilet alone too.

So here I am, at home all alone. Zah told me I should go out and mingle with more people. I think she's trying to insinuate that I should mingle more with people of the opposite gender. But I love my home! Never thought I would say that. Lived here for two years and not once do I regret buying it. Yeah.. it's kind of isolated and inaccessible but I love the environment as well the house itself. And I'm getting stranger as well.. I love to be at home ALONE. Weird, right? Haiz.. maybe 30 is the age where people begin to change. More mental, I guess..

Let me recap what had happened for the past three days..

Yesterday, I was home alone AGAIN. I don't understand why my parents always go out when I'm reaching 30 and not when I was a teenager. When I was at that age, at least one of them would be home and I would be stuck with them. I need more freedom back then, with all the chalets and jam and hop and clubbing and night outs. Haiz.. guess they know that I have mellowed. Don't have to worry if their daughter is up to mischief anymore. Anyway, I watched a Korean movie online, 100 Days with Mr Arrogant. Hilarious!!! Must thank Ms Body Beautiful for introducing http://aznv.tv/en/ to me. Then I got bored after the movie ended. So Zah came to my mind. She promised me a yummy chocolate place at River Valley Road. And since I didn't have the car (my parents were out 'dating' - they went to somebody's wedding), I rode her beautiful Piaggio for the first time. Haiz.. she has that bike for two years and this was the first time I rode it. Basically I always drive them around and usualy there'll be more than two people with us.

So this two goons actually rode for nearly an hour just to find the damn place. We actually got lost (we were riding in circles) and when we finally found it (it's at Robertson Walk, I think), the bloody place was closed! Fate is cruel.. Zah was kind of disappointed as she knows I LOVE chocolate. I was alright; I enjoyed the ride. Been sometime since anybody chauffers me around. We ended up at TCC. Nice place but the dessert that I ordered was disappointing.

Next stop.. karaoke session. Pretty fun with only two people; I didn't have to wait for my turn. Sang until 5 plus. Reached home at about 6am. My parents were still asleep. I'm blessed...

Three nights ago, I started my online Korean drama marathon. I didn't sleep, aiming to finish all 16 episodes. I actually promised PinkMonkie and P.H.Y.S.I.C.S to hike with them at Bukit Timah the next day. I didn't finish the drama(Hello My Teacher - funny! You must watch!), slept at 7am and told them I would fetch them at 9am instead. I woke up at 9am. Haiz.. I was so stoned that my brain and my motoring skills could not coordinate. But Bukit Timah I did complete. The three of us planned to go out late at night on the same day. PinkMonkie and I told P.H.Y.S.I.C.S that she must sleep; she's one living person who gets knock out at 10 plus. Whoever sleeps at that hour, right? But P.H.Y.S.I.C.S does. So after the hike and lunch, all of us went home. But I didn't sleep. I continued my Korean drama and went out with them again for the late movie. P.H.Y.S.I.C.S was so cute! She called me at 8 plus, clarifying PinkMonkie's and my idea of LATE.

P.H.Y.S.I.C.S' definition of late: 8pm-9pm

PinkMonkie's and my definition of late: 11am-4am

Luckily P.H.Y.S.I.C.S was wide awake through out the night. After the movie, we went to Macs and hang out there. For the first time, I saw P.H.Y.S.I.C.S was not even yawning or sleepy. PinkMOnkie and I are BAD influence. We went off at about 3 plus.

So you see.. I have done all the things I wanted to do which I couldn't do when I was young. So what's next?

That is the question.

twenty28eight is currently trying to watch another Korean movie online but there is some problem downloading it. thy name is mental, woman!