What am I Doing with My Life?

I was doing some work when I saw an old friend on MSN. I said hi to her and asked if she was having her holidays. This friend of mine is one lucky girl; not only she's smart, she is still studying too. In US. About some filming modules. Both of us knew each other since Primary Four. Went to the same secondary school. Separated in JC. Met again in NUS. Only that I'm in Arts and Social Sciences while she was in Business Administration.

Both of us always shared our heartbreaks together. Check out our crushes together. I remembered she had a huge crush on someone working at a fitness club in Bishan. We actually sat outside the fitness club for hours just to have a glimpse of that person. Hilarious..

Back to the present again, she said she was having her term break and she is currently in Geneva for holidays. Geneva?!?! She's 29 and still studying; and I'm 29 and besotted with work. How fair is that? She's lucky that her family's quite well-to-do. She's not snobbish at all; just plain lucky to have that kind of material support. Me? I have to depend on my own. I thank Allah that my life's more comfortable now; my parents seem to lead a more contented life now. But I can never be as lucky as my friend. Sometimes having the extra material comfort really makes a difference in one's life. You have a slight edge over others.

I always tell my goonies that we must improve our lives. If our parents' lives are of this standard, we must be slightly higher level than theirs. And how can we do this? Basic qualifications. I'm not talking about a degree or PHD; I'm talking about at least an 'O' Level certificate. But they seem to be dubious of my belief.

Recently, two of my male Goonies refused to cut their hair. They rather not take their prelims (prelims, mind you!!! Sigh..) than cut their hair. I was like DUH!!! God.. how can anyone be so dense? I was angry initally, then disappointed. With them and myself. Whatever I try to inculcate into my Goonies this year seems to be futile; if I'm a good Potter, my Goonies won't spurt out such nonsense! Attitude relects leadership.

When they decided to sort out their thoughts, they decided to take the exam. But with one twist; they left most of the papers BLANK! And sleeping 95% of the time during exam. Gosh.. I have been a Potter for that particular level for nearly four years and I have never seen such a 'phenomenon'.

Something else sprung out last week too. My goonies got involved in a mass fight in the Institution! With goonies from other institution! Bizarre, right? You want to know what's more bizarre? It was in between break time for their next prelim paper! Solid, huh? Have time to wack people but no time to do their exam papers? Down right unfathomable!

Again the question pops up in my head; What am I doing with my life? Why do I care so much about people who just don't care about their lives? And get emotionally affected by it?

I think I know the answer but the next question is.. How long can I sustain this?

*twenty28eight is currently trying to mark the prelim papers. and life goes on for her...*